I See Dead People...

Remember my tiny little melt down last week? Don’t worry this will not be a repeat. I’ve just been doing a lot of thinking this week. In doing so, I’ve figured out that I need to find a balance in my life between dating/this project, and the other things I’m interested in. Sure I’m interested in dating, even though at this point I’m pretty sure that there is nothing good about it so I don’t know why we want to subject ourselves willingly to it. Even still, it has to be done if we want to find eternal bliss with some hottie that better make this all worth it! That said, I had a fantastic weekend just hangin out with my buds, my family, and myself. I’m going to start with my buds so that I can immediately explain the title of this post because I know you are ‘dying’ to know what it’s about!


Last night, my Saturday night, was spent with a good friend of mine who is in my single’s ward. As a side note, I am so grateful for all of my friends. They are each unique and I like them for different reasons and love having a variety of people to turn to in both my happy moments as well as my times of struggle and trial. Anyway, this particular girl has really helped me to survive the single scene over the last year. We’ve suffered through together! Okay, it hasn’t been that bad but she has been a wonderful confidant and support to me. It is soooo important to have friends like this and to KEEP friends like this, even after dating and marriage occur. Girlfriends are different from guys and sometimes hanging out with them is just like a breath of fresh air amidst the haze of this dating sojourn.

The night started out at a random single’s activity where I didn’t know anyone but my friend. She knew me, and her other friend and that friend’s brother. It was okay but when it ended, the other friend asked if we wanted to go tour a mortuary. I was like “heck no.” (I edited that…) I thought she was joking but apparently her uncle is a funeral director. So…a large group of us headed over to the local morgue to have a look. If you don’t know me, it is important for you to understand that my entire life I have been ridiculously afraid of dead people. I’ve skipped several viewings and refused to go into rooms with an open casket. So it was a pretty big deal for me to go party at the mortuary. Nevertheless, it was an interesting experience. I learned a lot, saw some dead people, hung out in the embalming room, and came home and took a good long shower to wash away any lingering smells. I was afraid to go to sleep but finally did and of course, as I had feared, I dreamed about the old woman we saw in a casket. Oh well.

Why do I share this with you? Because it was an interesting experience and sure made for a great conversation piece at church today. As I have mentioned before, getting out and experiencing life (or death in this case) is so important for our own well being as well as for the development of our personalities and interest factor. All week I kept thinking that all I do anymore is focus on dating and talk about dating and work on meeting guys to date, etc. How am I supposed to talk about that when I am on a date?? So, building other experiences in our lives is healthy in so many ways…even though I’m pretty sure hanging out at the morgue isn’t healthy in any way for me! Haha…

So, what else did I do this weekend? I had a fun Friday night with another girl friend who I’m so grateful to have around and to be getting to know better lately. She is so fun to talk to and one of the nicest people I know. She also has great taste in frozen yogurt. When we were on our road trip a few weeks ago, we went to this place in St. George and fell in L-O-V-E. It’s called ‘Spoon Me.’ Have you been there? They serve the best natural frozen yogurt with all kinds of toppings and to make it even better, it’s actually pretty healthy. I didn’t feel gross after eating it or anything. Just going to the place is a fun experience because of its atmosphere. This would be a great place to take a date for a dessert or hang out so keep it in mind…it’s delicious!

Finally, a real spirit booster for me this weekend was just hangin out by myself trying to accomplish something. I love hanging out with myself! I’ve spent quite a bit of time living alone and have really come to love alone time. I was starting to really need it after a week with two very interesting, if nothing else, dates. It was wearing on me and I just needed time to remember who I was and what it is that I like to do. One thing that I really love is reading books so I decided that this week, the thing that I will do for myself, is read a book. I’m going to read, “Hunger Games.” I’ve heard only good things but I’ll let you know how I like it later. Doing things for yourself is so great. I hope that I will never lose who I am; that I can keep this perspective and be able to balance it with someone else.

Quick Update: I have a date Thursday night with my newest facebook friend from down south. He’s the one that I’ve been following for over a year because my friends wanted to set me up with him. All of his emails to me are ridiculously funny so I’m excited to meet him. At the same time, I know that he has some pretty thick walls up and isn’t really looking for a relationship right now. It’s nice to know where he is coming from so that I don’t get my hopes up. I think that he would be a really fun friend to have though and I hope that someday, those walls will slowly come down. I also kind of hope that I can help knock down a brick or two. I’m a good person and definitely someone that you can trust. Hopefully he will get to know me enough to find that out about me.