People often refer to older single's as 'leftovers.' Well, I am no leftover, nor do I deserve to settle for someone that is.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Hind Sight

It’s a sad truth, but truth indeed, that we see best in hind sight right? In some ways it’s nice to learn life’s lessons through our experiences but at the same time, looking back can be rather embarrassing coupled of course with the humility we should achieve at the accumulation of yet another lesson embraced. Almost two (very fast I might add) years ago I began this blogging journey and it has been just that. I was determined to learn from the experts yet I think that something inside of me at times said that I already knew all there was to know. I was the so called expert. Yet where am I now? I am now the 32 year old single female still trying to get the 40 dates she wanted to get two years ago, living it up in Utah. 

Now, I’m not saying I am a failure because I do not in any way believe that. I accomplished to the best of my abilities and am still progressing forward. This short dialogue was merely brought on by my recent visit to my writings early on this year. I cringed for myself and vowed once again to never break the rules! Rules are rules for a reason! I know I shouldn’t still be kicking myself for what happened then but it is something that I am currently working on learning from and moving forward as a result of. So, all I’m saying is that I’m slightly embarrassed at my quick disregard for the rules and hope for another opportunity soon to amend my mistakes and prove myself a better pupil! 

As for the moving on part…I haven’t done a whole lot of dating in well, awhile. I’d like to though. I honestly see lots of great single guys my age every week. I go to church with literally hundreds of them. For whatever reason however, I have yet to seduce one into asking me out on a date just yet. A huge reason for that I believe is the energy I’m putting out there. I’m still trying to figure that out though. But believe me…I’m workin on it! 

I also got back online. Shocker right? For me too. One day I just gave in again and joined a paid dating site. I thought I’d see if it was any better than the freebies. So far…nothing quality. It’s been a few months and I am doing things a little differently this time around but I have faith that if anything is supposed to come of it, it will. If not well then, at least I tried. I’m not incredibly worried about it.

While I feel like this particular year got off to somewhat of a rocky start, it honestly hasn’t turned out so bad at all. In fact, this year…despite the man count…has been filled with adventure as previously posted and with much growth and learning. Sorry I don’t blog much these days…work consumes me. I still love writing though and have been missing the friendly keys of my keyboard so I thought I’d throw in a quick update. 

Ps…while I have yet to achieve many of my goals, I just accomplished something that I NEVER, ever thought I would be able to do and I am feeling good about it!! I ran a half marathon!! I am sooo not a runner but something inside me just said that I could do it and I trained for 8 weeks and finished the race in 2 hours and 7 minutes. Not bad for a novice eh?