People often refer to older single's as 'leftovers.' Well, I am no leftover, nor do I deserve to settle for someone that is.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Square Zero

I know I’ve kept you waiting…some things are just hard to post. So, I guess I will come right out with it. Mr. Keeper is no longer a keeper. Okay, he is a keeper…just friend style. That’s what we’ve worked out to be and that’s okay. From the short time we spent together, I learned A LOT about myself and relationships, etc. It was valuable and to be honest, that was all I was hoping for from the relationship in the first place. I just happened to get so caught up in the excitement of it, and of feeling secure knowing somebody cared about me and what I was doing, that I lost sight of my ultimate goals. No worries however, I know that things have worked out for the best!

Now it is easy for us girls in these situations to go back in our minds and over analyze every little thing that was said or done! I am trying my absolute hardest to fight against that. I know that there are things I could have done better and I vow to learn from those for the future. But tearing myself apart over being who I am is not doing anyone any favors. Instead, I choose to focus on the positive. Mr. Keeper and I had some FUN times together! He said and did so many things that were really sweet for me. I know that he meant them. As I continue my research in the relationship field, I am constantly reminded of the simplicity of men and their differences from us. They say what they mean and generally don’t hold grudges and over analyze as we do. These are comforting thoughts that help me to move forward and to be at peace with the situation. (ps..I am currently reading, “The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands,” by Dr. Laura)

So, what now? Well, I have a couple of awesome parties to attend this weekend. Tonight is an overnighter in the mountains not too far from here. There are sure to be many in attendance and good times to be had by all. Snow…toys…men…how much better can it get? This fun time will take us through tomorrow morning. Then, tomorrow night I have another engagement down south with some old friends that I haven’t seen in way too long, and lots of strangers just waiting to meet me! Besides these parties, I am refocusing my life on all of the things I have been neglecting over the last several weeks. Yes, yes, I know this is one of my major problems with the whole relationship thing. It is helpful to know that now though, and it feels good to be ME again and to be responsible and get caught up with life. I’m back! And with that, I am more ready than ever to find Mr. Right!!


Mariel said...

Gosh Darn-it. And, GREAT!! So many mixed feelings reading this post, my friend. If it wasn't right, no point in forcing it. The right one is out there, for sure. You just have to find each other.

Have a ton of fun at your over-nighter. Be yourself and let the good times roll.

Livin it up said...

Haha..yes, I am feeling those same mixed emotions on a minute to minute basis! I feel strong and confident that the right thing has taken place and I can see why for so many reasons. But then...deep down, in my nucleus...there is that whole rejection that I am faced with that kinda hurts! I'm grateful it didn't go on sooo long that it was even harder to deal with though.

Thanks for the encouragement! I will do what I can this weekend and just have a good, good time! And I will be less of a slacker and actually write about it soon! Yes, now I have more time on my hands and man or not...I promise not to let things in my life slide! It's important to stay who you are and to continue doing what you like to do! That is lesson #1 that I learned from my experience. Maybe I will make a whole list...hmmm

Growing Up Skye said...

I'm sorry, Teresa. I know that's got to be hard. But you're still amazing!!! And I'm impressed that you are reading Dr. Laura's book. I read it just after I got married and I can tell you from experience, her advice works! You are now the second single woman I know to read her book and I think that's awesome! You are going to make an amazing wife someday and some guy is going to feel so blessed to have you!

Livin it up said...

Thanks Tacy! It is a good book. I always appreciate any advice I can get. And I appreciate your encouragement!!!