What's New?

It's been a busy month. I'd like to say I have been super stellar at the whole Healthy October thing but I haven't. I have however made some serious progress and have lost a couple of pounds. I ran a 10k and am running a 5k on Saturday. So, all in all, it hasn't been a complete loss. Baby steps my friend. It doesn't matter how you get there, as long as you keep on trying and progressing right?

I've been a serious slacker on here. So much has happened that sometimes I get a little overwhelmed and the longer I put off writing, the more that builds up leaving me with less motivation to do so. Basically, I was informed two weeks ago that after this school year I will no longer have a job. Now I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life and where to go. It's good to stop and evaluate my life but it's also overwhelming. The possibilities are almost endless. As I try to decided, my single status weighs heavily on me. Where am I supposed to be that will help me to find the right man for me? Or will I find a man at all? I wish I could just live freely and not worry about that but I do. I lived three good years of my young single life in basic isolation from others in my situation, thus living a very date free life. I don't want to ruin any chances I might have.

Speaking of chances, I guess you need a little update on the men huh? Well, not long after the third time I hung out with the fun guy that took me to the fair, he called me and told me that he wasn't interested in dating me. I applaud his honesty and open communication. I was feeling the same way but was unsure how to bring it up. The thing is, I REALLY liked his friends and I also enjoyed hanging out with him. I just wasn't super attracted to him or feeling any sort of attachment in a romantic way. Basically, he would make a good friend. So, we talked about it and decided to be friends. I'm happy with that situation and he seems to be as well. I do have to say though, despite my lack of interest, it was still really hard to hear. I felt kind of rejected for awhile....even though the feeling was mutual. I hate that I wait for guys to reject me instead of standing up for myself. I just get scared. Working on it though. Anyway, we've continued to talk and it's fine.

I've been out with three more potential men since. One of them I have seen a few times and he seems quite interested in me. I on the other hand, am not so sure I'm feeling it. I enjoy talking to him but I'm pretty sure that in the long run, he is not for me. I had a long talk with him the other night about some of the things I was feeling though, which I think is progress for me. I guess for now I will see how it plays out. Meanwhile, I am still talking to several other guys. One of those guys is the one from out of town that I went out with back in June and that I mention from time to time. I don't remember his name on here. I will have to go back and check. However, I am going to go see him in just a few weeks and I am super excited about it!! I just really like him! I'm excited to see if there really is anything there or if I have just been imagining it all these months. We just had the most perfect, fun date together. It was honestly one of my favorite dates ever. Since then he has given me a lot of helpful advice and has been a calming influence at times when I needed that most. He seems like a good guy and we had great chemistry last time we were together so I will keep you posted on meeting number two with him!

In the mean time, tomorrow is the fourth Friday of the month so don't forget to head on over to, Or So She Says, to check out some advice from my current read. Thanks for your support!