Just Kidding

Just a brief update from my iphone as I sit up late at night helping a friend in need. Right now...just waiting.. Let's get to the news you've been checking here twice a day for the last 2 months for though. Since breaking up with the boyfriend well, we just never really stopped dating. We had decided to date other people though, which I have tried to do, though only a few brief times. I had a great time for awhile on this fun app for the iPhone called "Tinder." It's pretty much genius! It's basically like hot or not, you have a one shot chance to either accept or reject someone based on their profile picture. If you both swipe right indicating interest, them you get to chat. Otherwise, you have no idea who accepted or rejected you. :) I met a couple guys. One was still married and the other was stellar but never really called back. I haven't been as diligent in my looking these days. :/

 Meanwhile, boyfriend and I have still been hanging out and chatting it up frequently. We tried breaking up again a couple of weeks ago but it lasted a day or two. He told me that he really cared about me, etc. I felt pretty good about that for like a day. The last two times I've been to see him however, I've left just feeling empty and disappointed. Things are fine but I just don't feel like he really cares as much as he says he does. Tonight I was pretty frustrated and sad as I left him. I just don't know what is going to happen there. :/

Last week came a little bit of a surprise though! Do you remember my summer fling from California? The manly pilot who took me to the rooftop for dinner and then on a carriage ride downtown? Well, he stopped talking to me when I went to Europe and he broke my heart. :( Things were really complicated for him then...he lost his job and wasn't sure what his future held. I don't know if that factored in at all to his decisions with me but I kind of hope that was it. But anyway...last month was his birthday. I still remembered it. So, I decided to take a chance and send him a really short happy birthday, hope you are well, email. He sent a short reply saying thanks and asking how I was. It made my day! However, when I replied I never heard back from him so I figured he was just being polite. Oh well. :(

But then!! Last Wednesday I got a text from him! He is out of the country and his email was acting up. Wow, there was a tiny sliver of hope! We texted for like 3 hours and he was friendly!! Then today I decided to send another quick text asking him to try resending a pic he had tried to send the other day. He did!! We texted a little but he seemed somewhat uninterested so I tried not to get my hopes up too much...even though I've had a hard time not thinking about him since Wednesday. Well, I've had a hard time not thinking about him since last summer but anyway... I went about my day and tonight after leaving boyfriend I was feeling extra sad for the loss of both of them. :( So, I went home and went to bed. And then my phone rang and it was him! The pilot! And he wanted to FaceTime!! So I picked up! :)It was a bit delayed but glorious to finally talk to him again!! Hope! Church was about hope today! I kinda do hope because I really liked that one! But I guess time will tell! Now...back to my friend...